VIDEO // Anything && Everything

As-Salaamu Alaikum
Peace Be Upon You
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Hi guys ūüĎčūüŹĹ¬†It’s been a while since I’ve been around, I know I know it’s terrible.

Literally, as soon as I get into the swing of things and into the bounce of one routine, it switches up all over again!! For example, adjusting to mother, then settling into the swing of work and next up – the move. Yes, we’re moving flats into something a little bit bigger.

Hence, vlogging has been much harder to participate in, especially since I wanted to be in the moment with my son and watch his every move and be involved in every joy and comfort.

Anyways, I hope you enjoy this vlog, which is a little bit of anything and everything about what I’ve been up to¬†since I’ve been away these last couple of months/ weeks.

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Until my next post xoxo

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LIFE // Ramadan Journal 2018 (1/3)

As-Salaamu Alaikum
Peace Be Upon You
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I thought I’d publically journal my Ramadan moments and feelings to see how I grow, evolve and if not learn from this blessed month, If I can leave this month with good habits (spiritually, praying, mentally and soulfully) then I’ll say mission accomplished. As nice as vlogs are too watch back on, I feel as though vlogging would take up too much time and effort and I really can’t afford to do that right now (time-wise). Last year I didn’t fast as I was pregnant so I was really anticipating this year and was concerned, if not slightly scared of the 19/18 hour long fasts that await me. I intend to split this journal into three segments and share them ten days at a time, as otherwise, it may end up being too long to share in one post.

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The first day of Ramadan went splendidly well, went by much easier than I anticipated considering the UK is one of the longest hours (18/19) to keep their fasts. It was a simple day and one that I broke alone at home as my partner was working. I broke my fast with a simple meal of 3 dates, water, 2 chappatis and chickpea curry. I’m going to try and eat less meat this month too, see if I can switch up my diet to include more vegan and dairy-free alternatives. I wish to make these dietary choices to better my health and I feel like Ramadan is the perfect way for me to cleanse my body as well as my soul.

I found that I got irritable towards the end of the fast as I was concerned about breaking my fast late as I was tending to Isa who was having a bit of a meltdown. He’s just so ill at the moment, no doubt from the sudden changes in weather – and his bedtime is usually around 9/10. So I was eager to get him to bed so I can eat and pray in peace. It didn’t quite go as planned and ate as the little man played/ ate with me.

In terms of self-control, what I tried to focus on was to think before I spoke and really control my anger. I’m confident by the end of the night we had a positive change. Throughout Ramadan,¬†I’m trying to be more self-aware so I can leave Ramadan as a much more appreciative and controlled person.
– T W O –
Last night I wasn’t feeling my best so I stayed round my moms and completed sehri there. When I woke up, I wasn’t feeling my best and felt super ill causing me to sleep quite a bit throughout the day and when I woke up I had the most splitting headache and felt super weak, I was really close to wanting to break my fast but I didn’t. I pulled on through and Alhamdulillah was able to complete another day of fast. When staying round my mom’s I couldn’t resist her food so it’s with regret I mention I ate fried foods of chicken nuggets and samosas! – Just goes to show how weak my self-restraint it (a work in progress for sure!).

Self-control & awareness// I realised I was very calm yesterday and I was aware of my surroundings really forcing myself to be in the moment, with my son and off my phone. Reading with him and praying with him. Something you all should know about me is that occasionally I can be quite ditzy and mindless, thinking about nothing and just blindly letting time pass by, I never realised¬†just how idly I’d let moments pass and allow frivolous sh!t get in the way. Being awoke of your surroundings (not just your day-to-day life) but the world around us is so important. It’s no longer okay to be ignorant and mindless, especially when we live in an age where information can be found at our fingertips. I’ve realised if I’m not informed I can’t be the best mom and raise my son in a manner which matters to the world. We’re living in world which is nearing an end, and throughout my journey here I wish to be able to help people, if not physically or through my actions, then at least vocally. With that said, I stand with Palestine.

C O M I N G S O O N

– T H R E E –

– F O U R –

– F I V E –

– S I X –

– S E V E N –

– E I G H T –

– N I N E –

– T E N –

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First Impressions || Huda Beauty – Golden Sands 3D Highlighter Palette

As-Salaamu Alaikum
Peace Be Upon You
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Today I have a¬†short review of the Huda Beauty //¬†Golden Sands 3D Highlighter Palette – ¬£40. My lovely friend gifted me the following highlighter for my birthday (back in November), so I’ve had a good couple of months at using this. I own quite a few highlighters so I wasn’t expecting to add any more on to my collection but now that I have it in my hands, I am impressed with the quality, pigmentation and durability!

Firstly the packaging – specifically the holographic art on her face is very pretty and innovative – I can really appreciate the graphics, artwork and promotion that went into the launch of this product although I’m not a fan of the cardboard packaging because a) it feels and looks cheap b) it gets dirty so again ends up looking tacky. For such an expensive product I do wish it was better presented, although on the flip side you are offered a lot of product (approx 4 x 10g).

Despite the packaging itself, the actual product is incredibly lovely! I was thoroughly impressed and happy with the colour payoff and turnout. The product looks a bit daunting and gaudy to work with but once applied (softly!) it’s very nice on the skin. It doesn’t just sit there, the product sinks in and melts into the skin nicely – so gives a melted glow as opposed to that awful powdered look.

By far my favourite¬†go-to highlighter is ‘Seychelles’ ¬†it’s the softest beautiful white gold you can use – and bounces off the light so beautifully and captures well in pictures. I love using ‘Zanzibar’ as a top-up blusher to add that extra shine and glow. ‘Tahiti’ adds a pleasant warmth to the face and I frequently use it as a bronzer which I know will be perfect for that summer glow. For me the hardest colour to use is ‘Fiji’ purely because of the formulation ¬†– it is EXTREMELY soft and buttery to the touch – which I guess can be a good/bad thing depending on your preferences. It works incredibly well in the inner corner of the eyes and the bridge of the nose. Top to Bottom // Fiji, Seychelles, Zanzibar, Tahiti

I’ve worn the highlighter in these images [here], [here] and [here] – feel free to follow me on Instagram whilst you’re there ;-). I love layering the highlighters especially ‘Seychelles’ and ‘Zanzibar’ – as seen in the last two images linked. The pigmentation is extremely strong so I do like to use these highlighters with a soft hand – so just know they are buildable. This product is definitely part of my glam makeup kit – not one I could brush off for an everyday look as I do like to keep that fresh and minimal. In terms of durability just know that it lasts and you will be shimmering from dusk to dawn!

I hope you enjoyed this post, if there’s anything else you’d like to see from me, please do let me know!
Until my next post xoxo

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Ten things they don’t tell you about motherhood…

As-Salaamu Alaikum
Peace Be Upon You
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I feel like there’s always something to add to this post, hence why it’s taken me some time to post it out. There’s always something new to share or something crazy you learn. Motherhood is one of the wildest adjustment you’ll make to your life so here are 10 things I was never told about motherhood…

When looking for a picture to set the tone of this post I realised I don’t take enough candid photos of me and my boy together – it’s usually pics of him and his dad, with others, or just of himself. I’m too busy looking like a bum to even think about getting involved, so that’s why you’ve got a photo of little ol’ me.¬†Moral of the story: GET INVOLVED, get taking those photos and capture those memories coz I know I damn well I would want to reminisce about them later on.

In no particular order let’s get started on the ten things they don’t honestly tell you about motherhood…

1) DRY HANDS.

// You wash your hands after every nappy change, before every feed and then for your own needs – it’s constant wash wash wash, dry dry dry. Don’t even get me started on the chore that is sterilising bottles ūüėí but it’s safe to say I’ve developed the most aged hands around town and it looks sad. I’m at a point where I’m like is there really any point to moisturising if it’s going to get washed off in five minutes? The answer is no. BUT if I don’t moisturise it my hand gets super cracked and bleeds and that’s not pretty to look at either.

2) 10 NEEDLES.

// When you have a cesarean everyone forgets to tell you the part where you have to self-inflict yourself for ten days with jabs. Yes, it’s there to prevent blood clots but boy did that hurt! I personally felt a burning sensation every time I got injected and it was a time of day that I dreaded so much.

3) WEIGHT.

// I don’t know what magical human out there exists but nooooo it doesn’t drop off anytime soon and nooo there is no time to go to the gym. I’m loosing out on ¬£15.99 per month on a subscription which I never use. ūüė≠ūüė≠ (DW, I’ve cancelled this now 6 months later).

4) LONELINESS.

// Motherhood brings out a sense of loneliness which I never really expected. Even though there are people around you it’s not the same. The nights are the worst because there really is no one else you can call upon. I mean realistically how many times a night are you gonna bother someone? (Please note this feeling does get suppressed over time when bubba starts sleeping longer) ūüėÖ. On a side note I think it’s important to note that Isa’s daddy works nights hence maybe why that feeling felt stronger? But either way it’s there, I’ve spoken to other new moms who have experienced the same helpless lonely feeling.

5) DEPENDANT COMFORTERS.

// I know as a parent you are responsible for the upbringing of your child. Which is great it’s the literal definition of a parent – to love and care for your little one. I never realised just how dependent the little critters are. Soooo clingy. From a cute morning hug to a temper tantrum cuddle who wants to be rocked and patted to sleep… but oh no, wait for it.. you can’t sit whilst you do it… you need to stand up!!! Can someone explain this logic and crazy science to me, please????! Why and how do babies realise we are standing as opposed to sitting? Like I’m doing the same motion. I would be able to get loads more done if only he was content with what he’s doing without me sitting there holding him or staring at him. ūüėī < that’s me exhausted and no this feeling will never pass for the next 18 years (or so I’ve been told ūü§™).

6) FIGHTING SLEEP.

// If you’re tired, sleeeeep!! They fight sleep and I don’t know why. I thought if they’re tired you rock them one, two, three boom ūüí• they’re down and gone. I’ve spent countless of hours rocking Isa to bed and before you know it it’s time for a new feed and nappy change – and guess what the boy never slept. Yet he’s literally moaning and crying to sleep. Those initial first months were hard, but don’t worry now that he’s 8 months old I’ve got him figured out to a T.

7) NECESSITIES.

// Don’t buy shit – from clothes to useless shit and gimmicky things. Don’t get sucked into it – don’t forget this is a consumerist society everything is made with the intent to sell sell sell! Save your pennies. Wait for your baby shower, wait for people to come by with gifts when the bubba is born because you don’t know what’s coming. In our family we all chip in for the various bits and bobs a baby needs because they do come at an expense. For example, one member will buy the cot, another the pram, another the bouncer etcetera… basically a registry? Of course don’t rely on anyone but in all honesty, you don’t need anything in the first three months except 0-3 months clothes, nappies, bottles, sterilisers, food and YOU. All they need is lots of warmth, love and cuddles from you.

Oh please note; the baby season rotates every 3 months or so. Take your time when making a big purchase. No doubt it’ll go on sale at some point. When one store has a baby sale they ALL go on sale – it’s what makes a competitive market. Having said that – make every opportunity of First Time Shop vouchers and mailing lists because when you sign up no doubt you’ll be emailed with a discount code too.

8) RELATIONSHIPS.

// The dynamics change – what I didn’t expect is all the disagreement that follows. You don’t realise as an individual how selfish you are as a person and in relationships. See that changes when you have a baby because it’s no longer about the two of you, your sole purpose for those initial couple of months is to focus solely on the baby. The early stages of parenthood are tough because you are the sole carers for this fragile beautiful being that you need to nurture and strengthen. Just be 1000% confident in your relationship with your partner before having a child – just make sure you’re both on the right page that way you’ll be able to overcome any hurdles that come your way.

9) HIPS AND HEELS.

// Nobody mentioned to me that after a baby wearing heels like I was 18 is no longer possible. I remember the days where I would wear heels at 6:30am and trot into London to uni and be back home by 7:30pm in heels no problem. What I realised at my cousin’s wedding is that I can’t last bloody one hour in them ūüė©ūüė≠ūüė≠ no joke my hip joints felt like they got stuck.

10) LATCHING.

// Prior to having Isa I never gave breastfeeding much thought, it was a natural action and bond between mother and child – yet it was one that I didn’t realise was quite difficult to master. I presumed babies automatically attached to the boob and knew what to do and the milk would just flow. Oh no my fellow readers that’s not the case, well not for me anyways. I had such a difficult time getting Isa to latch on it just ruined the whole breastfeeding experience for me and I ultimately failed. What’s supposed to be a really natural and seemingly easy experience – just wasn’t the case. It definitely made me more “depressed-like” post-pregnancy as the stress and importance of it weighed heavy on me.

I do hope you enjoyed reading this post, if you would like read all my mommy parenting style posts please search “parenthood” in my blog search bar on the right. && if there’s anything you’d like to know or have any suggestions for me don’t be afraid to get in touch and let me know.

I would love to know as a new parent what shocked you the most, or you felt in the lurk about? Feel free to comment below – Until my next post xoxo

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Video || DITL WITH US

As-Salaamu Alaikum
Peace Be Upon You
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Hello my loves, I’m sorry for slacking on the video front of life – but guess what – I’ve actively been trying to vlog a lot more! Not quite the daily vlogger – more so a weekly vlogger of here and there and everywhere – piecing it together nicely. I’m vlogging more so for me than anyone else tbh – a visual diary to show my son when he’s older and a touching way for me to remember him and watch the changes because let’s be honest, it only takes one blink to miss everything. In a world where things are digital and constant, I feel like pictures don’t always capture those perfect imperfect memories, the moving smiles and constant laughter/ babbling – I know 10000% it’ll be nice for the¬†future me¬†to reflect back upon – and in the meantime I’m going to share my moments with you too!

In this vlog, I share a snippet of one day where I and Isa pop out to eat at Tortilla where he sat in a high chair for the first time! && I pop into Primark and Zara and share with you what I purchase. So without further ado – here is the first of many vlogs to come – E N J O Y.

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First Impressions || Skincare Empties with Korres & Caudalie

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Peace Be Upon You
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This post is a quick empties review of the following skincare I’ve managed to finish up by Caudalie and Korres! ūüíÉūüíÉ I’ve spoken about my love and interests for Caudalie [here] when I was reviewing some of their travel skincare for you.

I came across Korres on Fabled Beauty when I was looking for affordable skincare – and that is exactly what they are – affordable skincare. I’ve never heard or seen them before but all I know is that they are a Greek brand.

Here’s what I tried out and here’s what I thought of the following products; I’ll start off with:

CAUDALIE // Vinosource S.O.S Thirst Quenching Serum

I vividly remember using this product during my pregnancy because I was getting super comfortable with my skin whereby I would leave the house countless of times without makeup. It was a period in my life where I barely wore any makeup yet I got the most glowing compliments. It’s a very lightweight serum that the skin absorbs really quickly so you’re able to move to the next step of your skincare. My face loved this stuff and it felt buoyant, soft and all round hydrated providing that healthy skin glow. Key ingredients include grape water and Hyaluronic Acid – which we all know is a must-have ingredient in skin care – it aids in rejuvenating the upper layer of the skin – providing an even resurface. Highly recommend this product and I can’t wait to repurchase. I’ve been loving a lot of products from Caudalie as of late and definitely one of my go-to skincare brands.

KORRES // Wild Rose Brightening Face Mask Р16ml && Pomegranate Cleansing Mask Р16ml

Now, I don’t usually review two products at once but I’ve just had the same opinion for both products and that is – I don’t like them. I’m not too fond of their mask due to its thick texture, it didn’t feel light and I felt like my skin couldn’t breathe, which is the opposite of what you expect when masking. I also didn’t notice any changes when using them. With so many masks on the street, you can definitely spend your money elsewhere and get instant results.

KORRES // Wild Rose Hydrating & Brightening Moisturiser for Normal/ Dry – 40ml

I wanted to really like this product and I kind of did. Throughout using this product I did notice my face appeared a lot brighter – and with glowy skin means hydrated plump skin. BUUUUUTTT it was so thick, I’m not sure if you can tell from the swatch that it was very clay like. Can you tell I don’t like products that take a lot of work? So I used it mainly as a night cream – which was good enough. I’m not exactly wowed by anything that feels like hard work unfortunately and this didn’t feel therapeutic either. I’ve also learned that I’m not a fan of rose smelling products.

I guess some could say this is a disappointing review, but I’d like to say honest. I didn’t enjoy many of the products I’ve purchased on this occasion – you win some and lose some.
Have you tried these products? If so what were your thoughts as I’d love to know?

Until my next post xoxo

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Follow Me To // London, M&M World & Peggy Porschen

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Peace Be Upon You
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On Friday 22nd February 2018 – I went on the most sporadic trip to London to meet up with this chic Tahsina who traveled all the way from Manchester!!! I knew her from the first days of Instagram I guess and she was one of those accounts I’ve just followed and spoken to over the years – so it was super nice to¬†finally meet her!!! We didn’t have a lot planned for the day as it was a last minute get together but we knew we wanted to hit up Peggy Porschen at some point in the day – so we decided to trip it out in London together in the meantime.

I decided the vlog the day, so please do watch the video above. I’ve also decided to share a couple more pictures that didn’t make it onto the gram. We started off in Convent Garden > M&M world > Harrods > Burgeri > Liberty’s > Carnaby Street and then finally to Peggy Porshen – where a detailed review of the pink parlour can be found at the end of this post.


Peggy Porschen Review
116 Ebury Street, Belgravia, London, SW1W 9QQ
Open every day 8am-8pm
Nearest stations: Sloane Square and Victoria Station
Halal? – I forgot to ask but I don’t believe they are.¬†But there’s plenty of other options to delve into.

I’ll try and make this a quick, punchy review. Right off the bat, they’re super instagrammable no doubt about it. Very pretty floral arrangements that change according to season and occasion. The pastel, airy-fairy indoors is extremely quaint but small (I can see why they get queues, it’s because there’s seating for 20 people max by what it looked like). We went approximately 6pmish and there wasn’t a queue and it was fairly quiet too. They have a nice selection of sweet treats from cupcakes to biscuits and macarons and even to layered cakes, also offering a variety of warm pretty¬†drinks. We both opted for a nice warm hot chocolate (¬£4.75 each) to end the day and I must admit I wasn’t expecting the cup to be huge, which was extremely welcomed. It was a really good ‘homemade’ hot cocoa where I didn’t feel the need to add additional sugars and it wasn’t too watery nor thick which was great.

We both also opted for triple layered cakes (¬£6.20 per slice)- I got the Banoffee slice whilst Tahsina got Salted Caramel. Oh, my these slices were super sweeeeet – too sweet to have had a hot chocolate with – I’d definitely pair it with a coffee-based drink next time. I must admit though – the banoffee slice wasn’t as moist as I would have expected, Lola’s cupcakes are much more moist, fluffy and airy in terms of consistency. Now I don’t know if I found it dry because we came closer to the end of the day BUT overall it was a nice tasting slice of cake. Is it worth the price??? Ermmmm in my humble opinion – on this occasion not quite. I definitely wouldn’t knock this place down, do go there for the gram and do try them out but just know there is other fun ‘hyped’ places to go over this place.

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First Impressions || TK Maxx & Boots

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— OH MY GOODNESS – This post has been sitting in my drafts inbox since May 2016!!! LOLOLOL, I’m going to be sharing it anyways because a) I worked on putting it together and b) I like the pictures, E N J O Y –

This post is a review of all the fun stuff I purchased in this video, check it out and show some love if you haven’t already.

First stop, TK Maxx.¬†Right initially I wanted to pop into TK Maxx as I was in need of some falsies¬†for a wedding. Unfortunately, they didn’t have any. A normal person with any self-restraint would pop out and move into the next store to grab a pair right? Nope, not me. I was insistent that I had to buy a few¬†things, which I can clearly do without but I needed as it was the bargain of the month!!
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And this is what I left the store with, not a single pair of lashes in sight!

JEAN PIERRE || Energising, 5 orange facial masks Рcleared to £3.00
I’ve only tried this a couple of times and haven’t noticed a considerable difference.¬†my skin¬†looks a little brighter if anything, and like all sheet masks it feels super refreshing, so it felt lovely on. Not something I’m excited to use again if I’m honest, I just don’t think sheet masks are my thing.

NARS  ||  Nail Polish РEcume Р£4.99 (was £15.00) Р15ml
I was really excited to see this colour and couldn’t wait to add it into my small nail collection. It’s the perfect off-white colour to suit my skin tone and not look harsh. Two coats and the job is done.

NARS  || 3.1 Phillip Lim X Nars Nail Polish РGold Viper Р£4.99 (was £15.00) Р15ml
Now I was excited to see this colour in the range and picked it up asap! I love champagne from Models Owns and this colour has the same look and effect but in gold!! Perfect for my occasion wear moments

CHRISTIAN DIOR  ||  Rouge Diorific Haute Couture Long Wearing Lipstick Р032 Bewitching Red Р£16.99 (was £26.99) Р3.5g
I love a good red lipstick, makes any glam look pop so I was ecstatic to this lipstick untouched in TK Maxx.

Paying a whooping total of only, ¬£29.97 for the whole loot!! – That’s pretty much just me purchasing a Dior lipstick for the day and calling it quits, justification done!
I’ve noticed TK Maxx seem to be sharing old season YSL, Stila, Christian Dior, Nars and MAC makeup in there every so often, so don’t be afraid to pop in and have a look because you never know what you’ll come across.
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Now having justified my mini splurge, I quickly popped into boots to grab a pair of lashes and ended up walking out with more than expected.

EYLURE  || Exaggerate Lashes Р143 Р£6.99
SLEEK MAKEUP  ||  Matte Me Lip Gloss РBirthday Suit Р£4.99
SLEEK MAKEUP  ||  Matte Me Lip Gloss РVelvet Teddy Р£4.99
RIMMEL LONDON  ||  Exaggerate Automatic Lip Liner РRed Diva Р£3.99
RIMMEL LONDON  ||  Exaggerate Automatic Lip Liner РEastend Snob Р£3.99
RIMMEL LONDON  ||  Exaggerate Automatic Lip Liner РAddiction Р£3.99
RIMMEL LONDON  ||  Exaggerate Automatic Lip Liner РObsession Р£3.99

As always when in Boots, I always purchase them during an offer, so no I didn’t pay full RRP for these items.
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The Rimmel lipliners are my go to drugstore liners – if you’ve followed me for a long time you’ll know that Red Diva is my thaannngg – the most perfect red you can own. Line your lips or wear it all over – it works great. An FYI – these liners are quite on the dry side, but I personally don’t mind too much as I know it’ll sit in place – just add a bit of vaseline to add hydration and shine.

Now I’m not the biggest fans of matte liquid lipsticks but I couldn’t resist these two colours by Sleek, love the plummy one especially for the colder months.

All in all, I’d say it’s a nice sporadic little haul that came about from today’s outing.

Until my next post xoxo

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LIFE // 6 MONTH UPDATE, Mommy Edition.

As-Salaamu Alaikum
Peace Be Upon You
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Hey beautiful, this is a 6-month update post on me, ¬†just checking in and sharing my up changes and updates that I’ve experienced since birth. If you would like to read the baby 6-month update version, then go right ahead and read [here]. I’ve decided to split the baby and I updates otherwise it would be wayyyy too long to read.
So here goes the updates:

MOMMY aka ME.

Now it’s important I talk about my own updates because as new mothers it’s important to also check in on ourselves during this time. How can we be there for our little ones if we’re feeling our worst.

Don’t just look at yourself from a physical aspect, think about your mental, emotional and spiritual attributes as well as evaluating your relationship levels. Through my own experience I realised it is so¬†important to check in on these other aspects too. If you’re not doing so well, get the help and support you need – whether it’s from friends, family or professional help –¬†just reach out¬†or find a form of therapy that helps whether it’s talking or journaling.

It’s no picnic in the park, you will be tested, your relationships will be tested – heck mine is still being tested, in ways I didn’t expect. Having a baby will put a change your entire existence and outlook to life – giving it a whole new meaning. I’ve realised there’s only so much help your partner can give – before they start exhausting themselves too. Just know that through time it will get easier – you will become stronger together. As long as you both know what is expected from each other, you will continue to fight through it¬†together. Just give each other time, space and understanding to overcome these new changes.

Previously I stressed the difficulties I experienced in the first couple of weeks of motherhood in this post [here] – from having no guidance and finding motherhood completely hard, lonely and unnatural. Fast forward to present day – it’s still hard, the difficulties are different and the struggles have changed. Although the sleepless and broken nights have become easier to manage and the cries are understandable.

Over time I noticed I was more smilier and positive, I started going out more, do my makeup more, look presentable and I’m finally making more time to myself. I’m still trying to squeeze in gym life but cooking and feeding myself is still a chore and last on my list. It’s coming together slowly but surely.

In terms of physical aspects – my hair was a problem, I noticed significant hair loss so I gave my hair the chop (hated doing it because I love my long hair) BUT it’s only hair and I know it’ll grow back very quickly. I had a ceasarean so my scar has healed very well except one little bit which is concerning so I need to book an appointment in for it asap. Although it’s healed, if pressure is applied to the scar it does still hurt. Majority of my bloatedness has reduced but I’ve still got that stubborn baby ceasarean roll there. Through constant bottle washing and washing my hands – my hands have become insanely dry. The Nivea smoothcare hand cream has been working it’s wonders.

I’m starting to have a lot of fun with Isa now, his giggles melt my heart, his gummy laugh is infectious and I fall in love with him more and more as the days go on. I love that he’s becoming his own person, very strong in himself and knows what he wants, likes and dislikes – it’s cute and adorable. I thank Allah that he’s a super chilled baby – easy to take out, no fuss, loves everyone¬†and enjoys the adventures. He could’ve easily been a handful – which would’ve added so much pressure but alhamdulilah I’m thankful for the ease that Allah has provided me.

With that said just note that within the first couple of months you will see the biggest and drastic changes both in your baby and in your life some good and some bad.¬†LITERALLY don’t sweat the small stuff, breathe, relax and enjoy your bubba. Take LOADS of pictures and videos and just say yes to all the fun oppurtinities and don’t be afraid to use the word NO also. It’s been a hectic 6 months but I’m actually looking forward to the next 6 months to come with little man. So I’ll guess I’ll next see you then.

Until my next post xoxo

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LIFE // 6 month Update, baby edition

As-Salaamu Alaikum
Peace Be Upon You
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This post is well overdue I know, but I’m posting it because in a few days, months and years time I know it’ll be a joy to reflect back upon.

YES, that’s right, my little baby is 6 months already! Born on 08th August 2017. I cannot believe half a year has zoomed by so quickly! Before you know it I’ll be back to work and then it’ll be his first birthday soon! ūüė™

If you haven’t met Isa Mikaeel before I introduce him [here] and talk about the struggles and hardships I have experienced [here]. Now, this post is a quick follow up from there.

Isa, Alhamdulillah, is great and doing well – except for the nasty virus that’s been going around as we both seem to be getting ill on and off since December! He’s had a constant cough and wheezy chest for a while now but he had a doctors appointment yesterday so all is well. Except his teething journey is just beginning so he’s becoming a lot more irritable lately.

Since his birth – he’s been circumcised at 21 days old, has had two haircuts – ehem shaves, numerous nail clippings and countless nappy changes.

SLEEP/ NAPS.

At the beginning, I was trying to figure out his sleeping schedule so I can work around it… and just when I thought I had figured it out we both end up getting ill on and off all the way from December to early February. These months were super hectic and draining because it totally flipped his sleeping schedule around and it was super hard trying to get it back to a manageable time frame. He literally slept 20-45mins at a time and then would wake up – it was so exhausting it definitely took its toll.

Fast-forward to now, as soon as he passed the 6-month date exactly it was like he fell into the most beautiful routine and now sleeps through the majority of the night ALHAMDULILLAH – well 10pm till 7/9am. He will wake up once (approx 1am) but I tend to pat him back down to bed. It’s been super lovely since this change and I’m in a much more positive and happier mood having slept considerably well. This means I’m able to put that much more of an extra effort towards Isa in the day and fully immerse all my joy into him. Plus it means I have more time to edit and blog for you guys!

Throughout the day he will have 2 naps varying from 30 minutes – 1.5 hours. Depending on what we do in the day it could sometimes be three naps. Don’t worry, I will write up a current detailed routine¬†post that I have going on for Isa in an upcoming post – a routine in which I believe has helped him to sleep comfortably throughout the night.

On a side note, we’ve noticed that when he sleeps on his stomach he sleeps the longest. Oh and when he sleeps on our bed he sleeps the soundest and the longest also – not sure if our smell that is lingering on the duvet is comforting?

BREASTFEEDING

This is possibly the most depressing part of motherhood that probably kickstarted my anxious, frail mental state to fall into a whirlwind. Having had an uncomfortable pregnancy with the addition of gestational diabetes throughout – I was taught the importance of breastfeeding. What sounded like such a beautiful bonding experience was immensely tough for me to get along with. I failed to latch my little one on to me… ultimately I felt like I had failed as a mother before motherhood had even begun. I understood the importance of breastfeeding and all the nutrients and goodness Isa would have received from me… but I just couldn’t do it. Eventually, the pressure along with other factors was too overwhelming for me so I stopped. What should have been a natural experience became the most unnatural thing for me to do.

I did try numerous times to get Isa to latch on but ended up getting into a bad state where I found it difficult to breastfeed him and was super harsh on myself for it. Eventually, I knew for my own mental health and happiness I needed to get over the fact that I lost this battle and just regain my thoughts emotions and wellbeing so I could be there for him in other ways.

Thus the journey into formula feeding began. I used Aptamil 1 First Milk ready to feed milk – which was literally ready made milk, ready to go… purely for convenience sake – all I had to do was warm it and plus it was easy to travel with. However, I noticed that he was regurgitating and throwing up a lot of milk, so I did change his formula up a couple of times across different brands and types. In the end, we kept to Aptamil 1 Anti-Reflux milk powder as there was a significant change since swapping him over – he hardly pukes up with this stuff.

TEETHING.

Oh boy, it’s happening alright. Anytime anyone is eating Isa will stare, walk towards you or will grab your arms/ hands towards him and try to nibble on whatever you’re having. It’s quite cute, to be honest.

He’s been dribbling a lot, likes to bite¬†his fists and onto some of his teething rings. We have good days and some bad days where he will throw a mini tantrum and I know it’ll be from the pain… those days can be quite tough but once soothed he’s not too bad. When I do see him fussing like that I’ll give him a cold cucumber to nibble over.

It’s all a bit of waiting game at the moment as we’re just patiently waiting for some teeth to pop through so then I can start feeding him mini meals!

SOLIDS.

No not poo, foooood. (although the poo is another story in itself, smh)

As soon as he was 4 months I started to introduce solid foods to him in the form of Aptamil Baby porridge. It didn’t go down to well and from his facial expressions I imagine it was too bland and he had a funny tummy (poo), so I stopped for a week and then slowly reintroduced it to him in the form of Ella’s pouches which he took to it very well. Since then he’s had a variety of pouch foods,¬†all organic – from either Aldi, Ella’s, Piccolo or Hipp. He’s enjoyed all of them to be honest (I buy what’s on offer). He knows what he likes and has his favourites – banana, mangoes and carrots and¬†definitely has his dislikes from parsnips, to mint and to even peas – bless him, little man was fully gagging on those flavours so I would try to mask the taste/scent by squeezing a bit of banana puree on top (cheeky, I know)!

Now that we’re at the 6-month stage I’ve given him more solid like foods from Farley rusks, to Ella’s puff, cucumbers, lemons and grapes. I mainly give them to encourage baby led weaning (I think that’s what it’s called) and to build his hand-to-mouth coordination.

Moving forward I would like to introduce him to Weetabix as I know the fibre will be beneficial and will be more filling for him. Moreover, it’ll be much more economical. Initially, the pouches were a convenient way for me to test what flavours and textures Isa likes so now that I know I intend to be steaming/ cooking them for him at home,¬†wish me luck! I will however continue to keep a stockpile of pouches as they’re super handy for a day out.

ROLLING, CRAWLING or WALKING.

No crawling – we’ve got hardwood floors and haven’t been putting him on the floors as much as we would’ve liked. We’ve had him lay on the bed a couple of times to encourage his crawling but we understand it’s not the same and he’s not building up the strength in the right places. Having said that he is starting to roll around all over the place, it’s scary to leave him anywhere alone for a couple of seconds. Whereas before he was a bit of vegetable and could be left anywhere. We are currently encouraging crawling by laying out his toys on top of a fur throw for him to wriggle around on. It’s been reported by his dad that so far so good.

Now walking is where Isa aces the test. Stick him in his little walker and he’s thunderbird go, go, go. He zooms all over the place, it’s sooo cute and funny. Everyone’s been commenting how he’ll be a fast learner and walker In sha allah.

WORDS.

Not quite, but I swear I’ve heard him say AMA (mom in bengali). OH and he loves it when I read dua’s (prayers in arabic) over him – he’s very responsive in that sense.

Lately, he’s really been trying to engage in conversations with a few ooooh’s and ahhhh’s here and there. It’s lovely to hear him babble and in response to his babbling conversations I too will babble back, hehe.

SIZE.

At birth Isa fit into newborn clothing and nappies, weighing in at 7lb and .5oz.

I’ve not taken Isa to a weigh in since his 2month weigh in (and you’re supposed to take them every month), lol. It’s quite a tedious process and in my area, it’s only done once a week at the local community hall and the slot is so awkwardly placed in the afternoon. In which Isa is usually having a nap, and since December we’ve both been ill so it’s not gone to plan. Despite that, he fits comfortably in 6-9 month clothing and size 4 nappies – so based off of that I’m not too worried about anything in particular.

TOYS.

Do not buy toys for the at least the first 6 months of a baby’s life. A) they won’t recognise it B) they won’t play with it C) they like the stuff that’s free (i.e. carrier bags – yes it’s supervised) or the stuff around them.
Isa has accumulated¬†quite a few toys, many of which were gifted, however, he only plays with two things. That’s his rattle (which I use before bed to soothe/relax him as it sounds like waterfalls) and this rattle chain thing where I put together a bunch of these jungle gym toys together on a D ring which is great for his current teething state.

But more than anything Isa is so content with his muslin cloth! Give him one of those and he will fiddle it with it, stare at it and lick it for ages!

THAT’S THE OVERALL ROUNDUP CONCLUDED. I think I’ve touched upon the main topic a baby update post contains and I plan to do one for 9 months, so if you have any questions let me know and I’ll do my best to answer them there! Oh, and my next post due to go live, is my 6-month update post because it’s important as new moms we check in on ourselves and other aspects too, so I do hope you’re looking forward to that too!

Until my next post xoxo

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